Just a while longer...

It finally hit me today. I'm leaving.
I know, I know, I've been leaving for a while, but now it's real. The days are both crawling and flying by. At work, time slows down to a crawl as I scramble to get the final things done before I leave. There is a lot to do, and little time. When I'm not running around getting checked off, I'm sitting in my office, alone.
I think that's where I started to feel like it's real. When I was sitting all alone in my office. I looked around and there was nobody around. All day. I felt aloof, abandoned, absolutely alone. I called Vanessa just to tell her I Love her. It helped a little.

Then, when I'm away from work, I don't seem to have enough time to spend with my wife. We have the same amount of time we always have (maybe more, since the sun stays up so much later), but it feels rushed. It feels like we don't have much time together at all. I don't know why...it just feels that way.

I said my goodbyes and see-you-laters to some of my friends/acquaintences today as well. For some, it was the last time I'd ever see them, and for others, we hope to catch up after I return. It was easier to leave some than it was to leave others.

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Vanessa's water works started tonight. She's been a really tough little Soldier (pun intended) about the whole thing. But now it's real for her, too. She just wants this week to never end. She's having a tough time - tougher than me - with me leaving. Luckily, we have some pretty good friends that have told her to call them if she needs anything. From calling up to talk, rant, cry, to coming over to do house/lawn work. Good friends like that help me be okay with leaving. I know she'll be taken care of.
Still, it's nowhere near easy to walk away from her, again.
I know we've been apart longer, but one of the things that makes us the strong couple we are, is that we enjoy spending so much time together, so anytime we're apart, it pains us.

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You'll probably hear from me once more befor eI head out...and then not again until I get set up in my new home. Don't fret.






ULI

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