I can't sleep

For the past three nights I have tossed and turned most of the night while sleeping.


Her tears are haunting my dreams.
I close my eyes and there they are.
Her beautiful green eyes.
Red and wet.
Dripping with sorrow.
Looking at me with a feeling of agony.
Every night I see those eyes.
And I shake myself awake.
Only to do it all over again.

Just about done

Remember that checklist I wrote about on Monday? It's all signed up now. I spent most of yesterday getting moved out of the dorm, and getting various other things taken care of, so it was a mostly down day, but today I finished up my signatures and am ready to PCS. Well, not ready, I don't want to go, but since I have to, my paperwork is all correct anyway. I got my tickets as well. For those of you that need my itinerary, here you go:

SAT. APRIL 8TH

Yokota - Seattle (Leave 3:30pm - Arrive 8:00am)
Seattle - Charlotte (Leave 11:30pm - Arrive 6:15am)

(((THAT'S RIGHT, OVER 15 HOURS LAYOVER!!!)))

SUN. APRIL 9TH

Charlotte - Baltimore (Leave 8:05am - Arrive 9:29am)


So it looks like I'll be in town just long enough to get lost on the way to DINFOS, and still make it to class on the 10th. Class will then proceed until April 28th and I fly from Baltimore to Korea with a 3-hour stop over in Atlanta, GA.

- - - -

Emotions are running rampant. Vanessa is so very sad. I'm doing my best to be strong for her, when I am aching just as much. I know I wrote earlier that it wasn't affecting me much, but it really is. I couldn't sleep at all last night. I tossed and turned and eventually fell asleep around 5am. We went to bed at 8:30! I can't stand the fact that any mention of the fact that I'm PCSing makes her cry, and thee's nothing I can do to stop it. ((I LIKE SALAD))
So, this last bit is for Vanessa.

From the dawn of time man has striven

To find the thing to make life worth living

And I now know this search is true

For at last I found you

And just when I can shout hooray

I'm forced to up and fly away

Forced to watch you sit and cry

As you think about goodbye

No words, no song could take away

The pain you feel from day to day

But read on, I'm sure you'll find

Just one thing to ease your mind

So you know you're not alone

The pictures on the walls at home

Will let you see my shining face

Though I know thay can't take my place

Look at them with memories fond

And remember I'm really not gone

It's in your mind that I reside

And in your heart

My Butterfly.

I know that probably didn't help in the least did it? And now that I'm sure you're crying your eyes out...here's a song that, just hearing the opening, makes me cry too. I'm sure you'll bawl your eyes out, but every note is the truth, every lyric makes me wish I'd written them, as they say everything.

http://bubu.gsg-asia.com/jetplane.mp3

ULI